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Sunday, 05 July 2009

  • A Selective Memory

    I suffer from eternal amnesia.
    No convenient fracture divides my life into
    Parts: Before Sin and After,
    To remind me of the heights from which I’ve fallen.
    I’m compelled by the arc of a broken covenant
    To repent of myself and I do,
    In confusion more earnest
    Than my confessions.

    My body is accustomed to the gravity
    Of my condition,
    Too familiar with this earth,
    Soft where Adam rests.
    I cannot help but envy the man who,
    Upon his last exhale,
    Possessed a memory and a trinket
    To show for his mistakes.

    I, with nothing but my backwards confessions,
    Make a pilgrimage to the cross,
    But at which cross to present my sins
    Is anyone’s guess--
    As are the sins themselves.
    Can anyone point me
    To the blood of the
    Original Christ?

    It was the holy who crucified him with
    Beautiful execution;
    They never got their hands wet and still
    Washed them for good measure.
    Was it Eve or Mary who wept beneath the cross?

    I know I have arrived at the site of my salvation
    When I only recognize it from afar,
    Where judgments were handed down.

    It is true that my hand never grasped for an apple;
    But worse,
    The owner has appreciated its fruits.

    - M. Mauss

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Friday, 15 May 2009

  • So it seems...

    I've become a Xanga nihilist. There is no reason for it anymore. It is probably time for a fresh writing start-- a conclusion I come to every four months or so. I'm pretty tired of writing things that are inconsequential, and so I've stopped writing here for the most part anyway. I suppose what I started using Xanga for all those years ago was to communicate with friends and to sometimes jot down something meaningful. But most friends stopped using Xanga long ago, anyway, and I feel overall like my words could use a fresh start. So, that's that...

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